I have Wondered how to write this, where to start .An old English teacher once told to "write about what you know," a bit difficult when you only know about disability and dogs 🐶.

I would take you out and about with me,but since lockdown I have too scared to go out.

You know I suffer with anxiety,correction everyone else suffers from my anxiety. I get terribly bad tempered and judgemental,yes,me.

Well after alienating everyone in this household,it was suggested that I start a blog,at least the machine doesn’t answer back and I am always right .

I haven’t been diagnosed with anxiety , I think I was just looking for a label . A reason why I behaved the way I do, ohh it’s suddenly gone very deep.

Here is a little story about a dog called  Bloody Heart

It all started when I let the dogs out into the garden. By dogs I mean Esther,she’s a German Shepard,then there’s dolly and her son winston,they’re shitzoo.

Well they were making the usual racket , then it went quiet,a bad sign, I shouted t in, Esther and dolly came, there was a slight whimper from winston.

Winston was on the other side of the gate,crying to be in.(I couldn’t get to him). So I did what any over reacting woman would do , in my dullcide tones, I shouted of our decorator, tony,he came running,he must have thought I was a complete nut job as I screamed to him to let the dog in. ( that poor bloke) .

On letting him in, tony said he had something in his mouth. Then I saw it.

My little dog came into view ,with blood all over his face,carrying what can only be described as a large,rancid,bit of dead animal. Tony said it looked like a heart. Left by Mr Fox, I presume.

So there was Tony, chasing a little dog around the garden ,shouting “ stop a😊😄nd drop “, Esther was chasing Tony with a old ball in her mouth thinking if she makes enough fuss he’d be bound to throw it for her. Dolly was also chasing Winston worrying that she was missing out on a tasty treat.

With the help of a bucket and shovel Tony eventually got the rancid heart off Winston and went back to painting, no, not blood red.

Now this saga is over I have learned one thing,dogs should be trained.

I love this picture.

Please don’t think I’m trying to be little your experience or struggle with Corona Virus. I go to bed terrified and wake terrified. It’s been suggested to me that I try and concentrate on the positive so here a few observations I have made on

Lockdown. 

Lockdown ohh lockdown what does that mean,

Well,here are a few things that I have seen.

Firstly , I know where the children are 24/7,

Anyone who knows us,knows that’s a gift from heaven.

I got to know the kids much better than before,

Keeping up with homework,reading stories, they did it all and more .

We started a quiz team, and even played some board games,

Mutual respect and togetherness was our only aim.

We had young people looking after the old.

We had a shortage of toilet roll, meaning,one per household.

Phoning old friend and relatives you’d forgotten you had,

You see life in lockdown wasn’t so bad .

It’s like the run up to Christmas ,all working towards a common goal,

To rid the world of covert-19 once and for all.

Now Boris claims it’s over, as from June the 1st,

 the schools will re-open and if you can go back to work .

I think Boris is stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place .

Some people think he’s a mug,

but all I’m really missing is a great big hug.

Here is a one I wrote for a girl with a spider phobia and a thing about wanting all spiders dead,
SPIDERS 

I killed a rather leggy spider today.

My chest puffed out,I was so proud ,

(Whisper) I'm scared of spiders but I don't like saying it out loud.

At first I whacked it with the heel of my shoe,

Then I threw it unceremoniously down the loo.

At first I was proud but then the guilt set in,

It might be someone's  ' brother or sister,it may be someone's mum or dad,

But thinking like that,it just makes me more sad .

So the next time you see a spider, don't squash it willy nilly.

I'm not asking you  to make it a pet,that would be silly.

Just spare a thought for the little spider  going on it's way,

And be happy in the knowledge you kept a family together today.

I wrote this poem some time ago

25 years  

On the 22 nd of February it's my birthday,

a cause for celebration I hear you say,

I would but for one little joke,

on this day 25 years ago I had a stroke .

I was quite lucky you see, they found me because I didn't go around for tea.

I wish you could be me for a day, and see what it's all about,

with good people around me , they have helped no doubt.

Having to re Learn everything, from washing,writing and speaking aswell,

I don't mind telling you, I went through hell.

I still can't speak properly and with a pen I can't write,

but don't worry about me,I'm doing alright.

I've had all the therapy some of it good,

but it just left me wondering just where I stood.

So, I joined a Stroke group I've been going for 2years maybe 3 ,

their total lack of judgment helped me find the real me.

No longer am I the woman in the wheelchair with the lop-sided face,

Instead they let me come to terms with stuff at my own pace.

25years gone in a flash,while I sat and waited to be "better ",

don't get me wrong, I was no go-getter,

always was quite quiet and shy you see,

without the good people all around me ,who knows where I be.e poem.its my way of saying thank you to all the people who have been there for me.

It's meant to stop others from sitting at home for years,the way I did.

So do with it what ever you want 

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